Phoenix-B-L-E-H

//s hrug
my will to live and draw has plummetted.

but ayy, seeing a psychiatrist soon.
Since Starr can't prescribe anything besides the basic antidepressants; and Burg no longer prescribes mental meds anymore since my little episode...

s h r u g..


probably gonna just start talking about everything with her.

Grayson,
how I strongly think I'm bipolar,
my relationships,
how love and relationships stress me tf out if they're long distance..

e v e r y t h i n g  i can squeeze into one session.

but...
i only want HER/HIM [[probably will be a woman]] to know what we talk about

i don't want our convos to be a library between Her/Him, my parents and I...

i want our convos to be private between US.

unless she/he thinks that she/he needs to tell my parents something [[i will strongly dismiss that action---]]

but e h;
knowing my luck

i'll be able to choose between having one/both in or by myself and

under pressure [existent and nonexistent] i choose to have my parents in.

and


that hides important information from her [imma just say that cause i think/know it's gonna be a woman]
and

that does her no good...

w e l p

also somehow;
i got asked out via friend [this time it was serious and not a joke :^))) ]again

and
cause i can't say no--

im dating someone again...

and i'm pretty sure it's long distance a g a i n....

fuck me in the ass with a running chainsaw....


why can't i say no....

aND ALREADY OFF THE BAT, leaving me on seen.

s h r u g
this is gonna be g r e a t.....

forcing myself to be happy for however long this last will be great.

Honestly, don't want a relationship rn..

Honestly just wanna be alone until i can have a relationship that's local...
aND OH JOY; I MIGHT HAVE TO GO TO WATERLOO THIS YEAR,
bOY IS LIFE LOOKING UP FOR ME---

i'm pissed, i'm sad,

i'm just everything right fucking now.


[LOUD EMO SHRUGGING]

it's hella cool
ClosedSo, i finally decided to do a contest : 0
I really can't think of what else to write here haha O v O;;
Anyway, for this contest, all you have to do is simply draw my fursona!

Please follow his description !!
rules :
-You must be a watcher.
-Please favorite the journal if entering.
-Comment if you're going to join.
(Please, you dont need to ask. Just join <33)
- No NSFW art
-no gory art
-No changing his design.
-Comment "Plastic Beach" To prove you read the rules
-YOU MUST MAKE A JOURNAL SPREADING THIS
In the art, can it follow his personality?
like, what he is doing. For example, -
he is a tired, grumpy guy. He is really lazy too.
You can draw him just waking up and in a bad mood?? (That's an extremely bad example but oh well.)
Thanks haha.
Anyway, onto the prizes
First place -1-month core, or 400 you choose.
 An animated icon. And a chibi drawing. (Chibi drawing might come with a speed paint)
A watch, shout out, lama. and s

stolen from @//Tangyify

y e e z y
idk it's called "Would I Date You?"

fill this out for fun or to be serious
idc which you pick nwn

Gender?:  
Height?:
Orientation?:
Age?:
Eye Color?:
Hair Color?:
Smoking?:
Drinking?:
Drugs?:
Job?:
Favorite Color?:
Favorite Music/Band?:
Siblings?:
Tattoos?:
Favorite Book?:
Perfect Date?:
Hobbies?:
Why should I pick you?:
Why do you even want to date me?:
Should I reply this to you?:
Dog or Cat person?:
Favorite animal?:
Where are you from?:

im single and
n o
i don't want a relationship

i never want another relationship.

anyways,

i wanna host a contest in July.
but
the only prizes i can offer is my art and


nobody commissions me for it so

why would they want it for free??

eh
i'll hold the contest anyway but

need to sell some OCs I don't use and
yep

need help pricing my art
like
the art i /actually/ try on

welp

im sorry if im not as active as you want me to be the next few weeks

i just broke up,
let me just

be bipolar by myself and not hurt anyone,,,,

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